Random thoughts for the day.
My mouth tastes like charred flesh and blood and sickness.
Wish I could wake up at four in the afternoon.
Saturdays are the best for all the wrong reasons.
And, honey, this life isn't big enough for the both of us, so find your own.
I like where we are. Here.
Our lips can brush, our cheeks will blush.
I fell in love with you so hard, you're the one I want.
Don't keep skeletons in your closet, you never know when they'll get out.
No good could ever come of this.
Your name is cheap, you look like shhh- you're just a whore.
Everything changes at the speed of light and somehow it's never fast enough for you.
So sick of this lack of confidence in everything.
I'm going to cuddle my cat.
Might go to sleep early tonight.
What a twisted world.
All puzzles have a solution.
All riddles have an answer.
All jokes have a punchline.
Don't you wish?
I know that today, right now, I can be free in this moment.
I know that today, right now, I can feel.
I can breathe. I can live. I can think. I can cry. I can laugh.
And I swear, I'm trying.
I don't love you like I loved you yesterday.
Would you have the guts to say...
Get out while you can.
I'm tapping my toes and wringing my hands and biting my lip, and wishing I could have you.
So sick of fighting.
Can't stand this helpless feeling.
------ A poem for you, you heartless bitch.
twist my words and wring my throat
i wish on stars and wreck old cars
im poison with no antidote
you sting like needles, cut like knives
take your own sweet babies lives
but you get what you give and dont give a fuck
you hope ill still love you with some luck
you break tiny hearts and wring tiny throats
dont forget to hide it all and make it rushed
you dont just break hearts, but spirits and trust
and you do this all without ever trying to do a thing but keep on lying
its okay though because youll need me
its funny now to you, you see
because you tell me im all yours
you think it's a game, this imaginary world
but ive got news, this world you see...
this world youve created for you and me
you tell me i should learn your rules
im sorry youre so mean and cruel
you laugh at me like im some joke and wish id choke
but - news for you - its YOU that broke
im the one that tries so hard to make you love me
wrecking cars and wishing stars - its never hurt like this
and one day ill get out and leave, youll realize in reality
youll realize then that you need me
and not vice versa, like you wish
so learn the rules of MY world, bitch.
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Living with impossible people.
It's like watching your soul being torn apart when you try.
And tearing theirs apart if you don't.
If only I didn't need you...
I swear, you're all the same.
Second chances should be a thing of the past.
People never change.
Sorry this one is a rant more than anything.
Can't stand the world much longer.
Stupidity and hate taking place of intellect and trust.
Don't know who to blame.
Can't point fingers right now anyway.
Leaving for Arkansas in four days.
Thanksgiving with the relatives and early Christmas presents.
Seeing my cat and tons of pictures.
I'll keep you all posted when I can.
Going to sleep soon.
Sleep well, car crash hearts. Don't break on me just yet, tough it out a few more decades.
Xoxoxo.
