I always put myself in destructive situations.
I should be sleeping. I should be sleeping. I should be sleeping. I should be sleeping. And I'm not.
Feels so good to be able to laugh. And scream. And cry.
You never miss emotion until you lose it. Then you do.
Guess that goes for everything though.
Feels like everyone around me is celebrating happily and cheerful and welcoming with warm arms and accepting tones.
And I'm screaming.
Thrashing.
Telling them all to burn. I should. IshouldIshouldIshould. I can't. I can't be myself. Much less who I want to be.
Today I looked in the mirror. The girl I saw wasn't me.
Has it ever been? I think anything original about me is a mistake. I'm a collection of ideas and theft. A walking crime.
"How have you been?" "It's SO good to see you." "How's school?" "Give me a hug!" "I missed you." "How are you feeling?" "Please shoot yourself in the face with a shotgun."
Car crash kids are always finding the songs they need to keep them floating. Just in time. Be my hero.
Gummy bears jelly beans lollipops candy.
This TAI song is all I ever want to listen to.
Giving presents, seeing family, taking pictures, walking into wrecks.
I went to a tea party. Yes, a fucking tea party. I wish I was kidding.
I have a box of sharp objects. Justincase.
I wish I could keep l i/o ving.
I wish I could give up/in.
I wish I could give/throw up.
I wish I could/would give up.
I wish/know I could give up.
I/You wish I could give up.
I have a box of sharp objects. I put them in my mouth. To remember what metal tastes like. To remember what you taste like. I feel you. I love you. I need you. Obsession vodka tonic taste.
I got a weird feeling today. Like a lack of breath and sudden chill. Like the kind you get when you suddenly realize you're dripping on a stage.
This TAI video is all I ever want to watch.
This life is all I ever want to live.
Cure me.
Pleasepleaseplease cure me.
Cure me. Cut me. Slice and dice, baby.
My brain knows one direction. Circles. I'm getting used to it, though.
Don't remind me what I've done and where I've been, when it all comes crashing...
