I think what bothers me most is that no one will ever say "Hey, do you remember that post Aly made?" because no one cares.

I love you so much it hurts. Fuck, it hurts.

I will probably regret making this post, but everyone has their down moments, right? It makes the up moments so much more enjoyable. I'm just glad my life is not fully consistent of only down moments like it used to be. I was so much closer then, though. I wonder if I'll ever be that close again. Ever. Maybe not. Will your life ever be normal enough for me to touch you with my bare fingertips and make you smile? I care so much, and I'm so sorry.

I will regret this post, but I won't delete it. All I can do is wipe the tears away and say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being cryptic and I'm sorry that I don't matter to anyone. I'm sorry you can't be normal, guys. I'm sorry that I am. But you don't care.

What. Is. Wrong. With. Me?

I'm a selfish fuck. :] Sorry. Down moment.