What the hell... Josh, I miss you. Seth, I miss you. DeDe, I miss you. None of you read this anyway.
But I do need you all and yes I know I'm a bitch and don't deserve anyone. I'm sorry.
That's the best I can do.
Now back to being my typical self.
Drinking chocolate milk out of wine glasses and taking shots of fruit punch to make ourselves feel important.
Make me sweat like you always do.
Why is it so hot?
Finding new methods to my madness and dragging you along with me.
Do you love it?
I don't.
Maybe I do.
Maybe I shouldn't.
Maybe I should.
That's all I've got tonight.
I need to get to sleep anyway, going shopping for my brother's birthday tomorrow... Yes that means actually leaving the house.
Been memorizing the lullaby you wrote together so I can sing it to my niece when she comes. How twisted. Finding it hard to smile since you don't anymore.
Been trying to get into Cute Is What We Aim For, even though I really don't like them much.
Oh, and have some pictures.
Hush hush.
For you and hoping you feel better.
Accident picture but it's cool anyway.
Oh, and from last night. Sorry for the shitty quality, I didn't want to wake her with the lights. But it's moments like this that I live for.
Sleeptime when I'm done cleaning my room. Sleep well, car crash kids. I wish I wasn't missing Seth, Joshy, and De`Shara so much. Sigh. I love you all anyway even if you hate me. Really.
Everyone just smile for me, please.
Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.
